Project: Stay

Note: This is a longer post, but you can just scroll through the pictures if you’re in a hurry!

Finally, finally, I was inspired to complete a piece. In the past, I haven’t given much thought to what I’m drawing. I was just imitating what I saw, usually something that looked pretty or interesting to me. This time, I actually had a specific idea and planned it out. The project ended up a little differently from the way it started in my mind, but I like where it went. This was a challenge for me in that I ventured away from the reference, inventing a scene through the window and changing up the placement and type of wood for the table and window frame. I took more pictures than usual because I wanted to show some more of my layering process.

This is not a self-portrait, per se, but I did have my husband take a photo of me that I used as a reference. I do see some of myself in her (at least, how I see myself). I drew my initial sketch using a 4H graphite pencil. After I took the picture below, I erased as much of the graphite as I could, particularly in places where I knew I would be using light colors.


First I put down some light layers, starting with the main figure.


I probably should have taken another picture or two in between these stages, but when I get going I sometimes forget. I used a few different shades of brown for the hair, leaving lighter areas which I then blended with White to achieve the highlights. I rarely use straight Black pencil but I thought it appropriate for the pupil. I knew what color I wanted the wall to be at this point, but hadn’t yet made a plan for the table or the window. This is always a problem for me when I create projects in my mind that aren’t entirely based on something I’m looking at: I get excited, get started, and then am left to complete the concept at the last minute, often unsatisfactorily.


At this point, while I wasn’t quite ready to work on the window, I dove in anyway. I knew that the view through the window, while not the central focus of the drawing, was nevertheless significant. I didn’t want something too mundane, or unattractive and therefore distracting. I practiced blending some colors on a scrap paper and liked the effect I came up with, which reminded me of an abstract version of how it might look through the window of a moving train. This actually took the idea in a slightly different direction and helped me come up with the title. Again, I started with light layers of the base colors I wanted to use.


Then I layered additional colors and blended with my colorless blender left to right until I achieved the desired effect. Honestly, I had been hoping to create a warmer feeling, but it shouldn’t be all that surprising that I didn’t succeed considering I used so many cool colors. I’m not entirely happy with how this aspect of the drawing turned out, as it wasn’t what I had imagined at the beginning. But to be realistic, I hadn’t made much of a plan for that part anyway. I had decided that I wanted a watercolor effect (without the watercolors, which I am not practiced with and feared would drip down and ruin what I already had). I am glad that I took a risk and did something a little abstract, which is totally new for me.


Now, I had come to the stage where I needed to make a few more decisions. I had originally imagined dark wood for the table and the window frame, but I realized that this would make a whole lot of the drawing dark brown, and be noticeable for the wrong reason. I settled on a lighter wood for the table (vaguely reminiscent of oak) and a darker wood for the window frame. This was my first light layer of color for the table and window frame. I did look online at different types of wood to get a slightly more realistic idea of what the colors might look like. I also realized that I had given no indication that the scene was being viewed through a window so I went in with White to suggest some reflections on the glass.


Second layer of color:


Even more layers of color:


Next, I blended everything out with colorless blender pencil and added a shadow to the table (there’s that warmth I wanted! Although I later realized the placement of the shadow is probably way off from where it should be, depending on the actual angle of the window and the light coming in).


Finally, I made some minor adjustments and put on the finishing touches, like filling in any blank spaces with white (when you skip this step, the drawing tends to look slightly incomplete). I added some more color to the eye, darkened the pupil, and added a tiny bit of pink on the cheeks. I also fixed a few hairs, added/ enhanced some shadows, and completed the hand. This was one area that frustrated me because the shadows came out too dark and I couldn’t lighten them enough with White/ blending. However, I think it is still an improvement over the ghostly hand in the previous stages.

StayStay, colored pencil on Bristol paper, 2018 (11×14)

I don’t know how realistic this drawing ultimately is in terms of proportions and shading, but I like that I came up with the idea and actually drew it. It mostly fits with my usual style, which I think is a little reserved/ conservative (clean, straight lines, aiming for realism), but veers away in the sense that I drew partially from my imagination. I’ve still got some work to do as far as the colored pencils go. For example, even though I used my drafting brush excessively to clear away debris, I still got some clumps of pencil stuck in the paper, particularly on the table.

I don’t want to do too much explaining about the piece, because I don’t want to take away the enjoyment of letting the picture mean whatever it might mean to you, but I’m happy to answer any of your questions.